It's a neon party!

Went for a neon party at Que Pasa for Sue Ann's birthday. Great to see everyone loosen up from the usual tensed up work mode. People like these makes work more bearable, and life less depressing, somewhat. No doubt I made sure to don a million glowing stuff, I felt like the star of the night for awhile.

Happy birthday Sue Ann the Amazing Lawyer!

High Pedestal

I haven't had a bad day in a long time. Life has been almost perfect, cliche as it may sound, but it was as though I'm living a little dream. I discovered diving all over again with a brand new perspective; I'm doing what I like for a living; I have my family healthy, safe and happy; and I have someone to account to and account for. In short, I'm grateful for what I have and my heart is full.

Things underwent a reality check yesternight. I never knew I could be this compromising but I surprised myself. I took a little pity on myself but I knew I had to do whatever I could to make another happy. Truth to be told, ever since I took the giant leap of faith with much uncertainty and fear, I never looked back. Simply because it just IS worth it. But that didn't stop me from feeling a little annoyed at myself for feeling undervalued. Perhaps it's the combination of work stress, fatigue and my snappiness. Perhaps I thought I was a bigger person than I am. Perhaps. 

Today was bad. Plain bad. I don't think I've been shouted at by anyone except my parents, save for my training days and quarrels which turned out ugly. It was almost insulting. I took a reality check again whether I'm ever going to make a cut in this profession. This may be an experience that will bring me to greater heights, this may be a test for me. But it could also be a revelation that I'm not emotionally strong enough to deal with this. 

With all my heart I pray for this week to pass. 

A little more personal.

instead of writing about what I've been doing and where I've gone to (which can easily be inferred from Facebook), I guess it's time to write something more substantial and personal on this personal page. hopefully my grasp on writing (on a personal level)hasn't disintegrated over the years of disuse...

as most of you would have already known, I've started working and it's been two months going 3 and although I can't exactly say I'm enjoying working life, I'm slowly learning to adapt to it. afterall it's a "Sink or Swim" world and I'm definitely not gonna let myself sink. so yeah, here I am shaping my life into what I envision it to be. it's harder than I thought; slowly but surely, I'll get there. the only saving grace at this point would be that I'm doing what I like.

save that I can't skip work when I'm having a "low day" (unlike schooling where I can choose not to attend classes without much repercussions), I think working is better than schooling. I'm sure many of my working friends will disagree, but as of now, this is what I genuinely feel and here are the reasons why:-

I. I get to feel how weekends feel like, instead of stressing myself out and mugging endlessly. 

II. I get to sleep in during the weekends without feeling guilty. 

III. I get to sleep at the end of the day without nightmares about exams (well, sometimes I get dreams about work but definitely much more manageable that that of exams)

IV. I get so sleepy at the end of the day I sleep at normal human sleeping timings. 

these may sound superficial but I think it improves my overall well-being. on top of those, I'm also exposed to the many good and ugly sides of people, and the various people who have achieved so much which really inspire me to be better than I can be. I've learnt how to deal with difficult people in a professional way, and stand firm on my grounds. most importantly, my law has improved evidently. 

however, life is not always a bed of roses and here I am at another crossroad. as much as I know any decision I make now will result in consequences upon my future, I need to take that giant leap of faith. i just need to convince myself everything's going to be worth it at the end of the day. or so, I hope. 

for all the bigger plans, I keep my fingers crossed. 

xoxo

I'll never forget a single moment.

“The entire summer was perfect, the kind of summer everyone should have. How could I pick one moment over another? Poets often describe love as an emotion that we can't control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. That's what it was like for me. I didn't plan on falling in love with you, and I doubt if you planned on falling in love with me. But once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, love like that has happened only once, and that's why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I'll never forget a single moment of it.” 

― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

thankful for a public holiday on a tuesday. can't wait for this exciting weekend to arrive.

xoxo.

One step at a time.

“there is a love i reminisce, like a seed i’ve never sown.
of lips i am yet to kiss, and eyes not met my own.
hands that wrap around my wrists, and arms that feel like home.
i wonder how it is i miss these things i’ve never known.”
-Lang Leav

blood-donation cause i’m cool like this.

one of my favouritest food. getting to pick all the fillings in my sushi makes me so happppyyyy ^^

happy 3 friends  

HAI DI LAO FINALLY!
but mehhhh not as impressive as i thought it would be :(

insta-addict.

9 years of love and counting. from school and work to boys and fats. nothing we can’t talk about under the sun. we need a decade-anniversary thingamy hohoho.

xo.

mommy loves me this much. i’m on her wallpaper hmmmm.

very handsome daddy ^^

looking through their wedding photos, reminiscing the past.

and here’s ending the post with a photo of some of my colleagues. we are too cool for fire drills hahahaha.

weekends are here, and ending soon :(
weekends are sooooo short sighhhhhh.
and till the next,
xoxo.

One step at a time.

survived another week at work, some days it gets really crazy but i guess that’s the problem with the legal industry, so i guess i just have to resign to fate. which makes me wonder how long do people remain in this industry until they decide to call it quits. that they decide staying in the office for 15hours per day is too much to bear, that doing legal research for days only to realise that they need to abandon it in the end… really hats off to those who survived and are still surviving! this is really the survival of the fittest hmmm… ohwell, it’s only the beginning for me and there’s still a longggg way to go. just that i really miss going out with friends and meeting them as and when we wanted, and spending time with my family, and sleeping in (THIS IS THE WORST).

so here’re some #ootd to share. every night i’ll face the same dilemma of what to wear… i mean it’s already depressing enough that i cannot sleep in and cannot meet my friends right, so must dress up to make myself feel better! and i always have a blazer with me (not featured haha), but it’s usually too warm in the morning so i only put it on when i get to the office. and sometimes it gets a little difficult to find work-appropriate clothes cause some of my dresses are too short for work. or they become too short when i’m on heels… sigh pie what a headache.

my face for work which is exactly the same everyday haha. and i’m starting to like those bangs ^^

one day after work and managed to catch jasper still awake!

and here’s me before Zumba lesson. yes i’m taking Zumba lessons now so I workout and dance at the same time haha. to counter all that sitting and eating and not moving around at work!

and ending this post with a photo with two of the best people in my world.

01:19hr now i feel like it’s 4am already oh boy i’m really getting old.
so goodnight for now!
xoxo.

Life’s a roller coaster.

hi world, finally squeezing in some time for this space. oh boy, how i miss the internet. so as most of you would have already known, i’ve started working. sigh pie, boring story of my life. but it’s goos that i can apply what i’ve learnt. the sad part is that i’m really not a morning person so waking up and staying conscious is really a HUGEEEE barrier for me. one week into working i still feel like shit every morning ;( ohwell, i really gotta get used to this.

and here’s a photo of me (and my new bangs) with huishi and lester at their wedding luncheon. my first friend getting married!!!! really happy for them now that their days of skype and whatsapp are finally over! their long-distance relation that actually ends in such a blissful matrimony is just so… overwheminggggg :’) gonna miss her when she leaves for Oz but hey, change is always good xx.

here are some #ootd of my work wear. and yes, i brazenly wore shorts to work hahaha. but it’s casual friday!
N/B: wearing heels every every every day is making my feet really sore at the end of everyday. this is such a true depiction of WANT PRETTY DON’T WANT LIFE as jie always says of me hahaha.

and here’s ending a photo of me and mom waiting for a train. yes mom’s taking a train after god-knows-how-many-years. and yes that’s how i look after one week of work – SHAG.

alrighty gotta spend the rest of my sunday doing work before i get grilled like a BBQ pork on monday’s meeting.
FIGHTING!
xoxo.