Things underwent a reality check yesternight. I never knew I could be this compromising but I surprised myself. I took a little pity on myself but I knew I had to do whatever I could to make another happy. Truth to be told, ever since I took the giant leap of faith with much uncertainty and fear, I never looked back. Simply because it just IS worth it. But that didn't stop me from feeling a little annoyed at myself for feeling undervalued. Perhaps it's the combination of work stress, fatigue and my snappiness. Perhaps I thought I was a bigger person than I am. Perhaps.
Today was bad. Plain bad. I don't think I've been shouted at by anyone except my parents, save for my training days and quarrels which turned out ugly. It was almost insulting. I took a reality check again whether I'm ever going to make a cut in this profession. This may be an experience that will bring me to greater heights, this may be a test for me. But it could also be a revelation that I'm not emotionally strong enough to deal with this.
With all my heart I pray for this week to pass.